Thursday 28 February 2008,22:43:00
wow, i must really thank god.. hmmx.. coz actually on tues afternoon, my sis was like looking thru the newspaper and msn-ing mi those emails ask mi send my resume.. hmmx.. the nitex before was being nagged by deardear and moon asking mi hurry send more resumes!!! lolx.. so.. well.. i sent those my sis gave.. and look through jobstreet and stuff and sent a few too.. then... i received a call saying she receive my application.. and would like me to go down for an interview on wed morning.. so i thought is my sis newspaper de.. hmmx.. then on wed morning, wasnt really feeling well sia.. woke up with aches again.. =X then eyes swollen haha.. wanted so much to dun go the interview de.. =X but then.. think over.. cannot! i really need a job badly! i must go sia.. so.. i went.. the lady super nice.. the moment she came in.. she was saying "hey dun worry there is public transport just outside the company.. and if one day u work late and i work late also.. u can take a ride from mi coz we stay quite near.. i stay bukit panjang.." i was like.. eh.. ok.. =,=" then i asked her u mean ur company dun provide transport? she said have but not sure cck have pick up point anot.. then she went out to check for mi sia.. and return back saying.. cck have pick up point good for u rite? i was like.. oh ok.. hmmx.. nice rite? haha.. shock sia.. hmmx.. then we waited for another guy to come in then start the interview.. i can feel the lady like okok lorx.. like willing to hire liao that kind.. but i felt the guy like not ok.. lolx.. hahaha... hmmx.. then thru the whole interview.. i nv speak at all sia.. hmmx.. =X so i tot.. gone case liao la.. hahahaha... then after interview i took wrong bus somemore.. zzz... idiot mi.. chase for the bus end up wrong bus.. took to tuas interchange.. kaox.. wulu wulu one.. totally deserted like that.. gosh.. =,=" hmmx.. then when i reach boonlay interchange.. i cant walk sia.. pain! =X so i nv go look for one agent who called mi in morning..
this morning received a sms from irene asking i went her company for interview? coz i promised to let her know if her company call mi ma.. hmmx.. i was like huh? is ur company mehx? i didnt know.. lolx.. haha.. then she replied aiyo! haha... then she said heard from her colicks that her boss wan hire mi.. i was like reali?!?! gosh.. so happie.. lolx.. then was hopin they call soon.. so that i dun have to go for the afternoon interview at tanjong pagar.. haha.. but irene said most prob fri then will call mi.. i was like.. oh.. but really thanks god!! she called at 1plus.. wow.. i was so damn excited and happie! i really bong bong tiao tiao lorx.. cant stop smiling!!! hahaa... kelvin was like laughing at mi lorx.. haha.. hmmx.. then i asked her erm.. they nv mention abt pay wise.. then she said.. we are giving u what u wan lorx so that's y u nv hear us talk abt it.. gosh! super happie lorx! transport wise i already can save so much u know.. hmmx.. lalala.. just so damn happie today!!! =D i really must work super hard from now on.. for my sake! i must! must not be like the past anymore.. i wasted another two months.. i left 10 months to go.. hmmx.. deardear was like saying wahx.. someone finally wan work hard liao arhx.. hmmx.. ya.. i reali have been wanting a job so badly.. 1st time in my life.. i wanted it so badly.. hmmx.. tired of rotting at home.. and living in saddness! it's time i break out of the shell and be happie man! ser.. i was reali touched when u told mi just now about what ling they said.. like ask mi join along for your gathering.. ya.. thanks alot..! help mi say thanks to them man! i was reali touched just now.. u guys were the one who made the difference for mi during cny.. and now they are welcoming mi to join along for the gathering and stuffs.. hmmx.. thanks! my job is also help from irene! wow.. i reali dunno what to say.. =)
*heard from irene.. think she told her superior what i told her.. like the guy like not ok.. hmmx.. but she told her... rite after the interview.. he told her he wan hire mi liao.. gosh.. i was like.. unbelievable... lolx.. =P haha.. u cant believe howx happie i am now man! think its really been super long since i felt this way... hahaa... =) really thanks god.. =))
Tuesday 26 February 2008,23:43:00
the world is really small.. ya.. hmmx.. there used to be this gal named mary in his cg who never give up in asking him back to church.. so i disliked them alot.. haha.. coz always ask him out.. well.. when broke off.. i thinking of returning to god.. i asked myself.. what if one day.. i had to be in the same cg as her or weenee? what if one day i had to know them and realised they were the ones i disliked?! well.. i did pray i wont get to know them tho.. lolx.. but of coz i know.. the more i dun wan.. the more god will place them into my life.. moreover.. if i were to return to god.. there shouldnt be any dislikes among His children rite? hmmx.. but well.. never expect i will know her in such a weird situation.. and when im not even reali prepared to return back to god yet.. haha.. ser.. know the mary we know in pub?! today was looking thru friendster.. saw her in tony's list.. then.. was surprised.. so i sms her.. ya.. she was the one.. i 'hated'.. lolx.. the least i would wanna meet and know man! why do i have to meet her at this time.. haha.. was moody whole day.. no mood.. somehowx being reminded of him.. argh... super no mood.. hmmx.. the world is just so so so small... god just love to play pranks on mi.. i wish.. everything could just stop and end here.. =X
Monday 25 February 2008,23:50:00
today super super happie.. lalala... not coz i got a job tho.. sighx.. =X the tot of im still jobless sadden mi again.. =X anyway.. hmmx.. ya was saying im super happie.. coz.. aftn he sms mi asked mi what i doin.. haha.. end up is coz his car break down at airport after he sent his frenx there.. so he waiting for another frenx to come help him.. then super bored so sms mi.. anyway.. after sms two to three msg.. he called sia.. lolx.. so we chatted for like an half hr? hmmx.. bo liao chit-chat lorx.. hmmx.. then he suddenly said.. see when free come out for movie la.. actually thurs wanted ask u out for movie de.. but u already watching movie with your sister.. haha.. =P so deardear.. tt day is not i tink too much.. lalala.. he reali is wanted ask mi out lolx.. =P then when his frenx reached, we hung up.. hmmx.. after awhile he called back.. said his car ok liao.. i was like so fast? he said just push can liao ma.. then he like breathless sia.. haha.. then think he driving so he said dont talk liao call u tonight... later rem to eat.. lolx.. so funnie.. hmmx.. then 6pm he sms mi happie working.. faint.. =,=" then i told him i hungry sia.. he said ok lets go dinner.. lolx.. i working lorx.. howx to go.. sianx.. then i said stupid mi actually forgot to eat lolx.. then his reply kinda cute sia.. he said.. told u to eat lehx howx come so forgetful... =X haha.. i see liao.. feel so funnie =P oh ya.. he said he want pierce his nose.. hmmx.. weird la.. but i said if he reali gonna pierce, i wan see!!! heehee.. told him not to add any more ear holes.. coz felt now his two earholes just nice.. very nice.. haha.. =)
anyway, rite after put down with him.. told my 3rd sis and reen abt it.. heehee.. coz too happie liao must share.. wahaha.. hmmx.. reen said.. go ahead.. =,=" then i was like.. no la.. frenx nia.. she said.. alot rs start from frenx.. but i said.. nono.. he too good looking not for mi.. i dun wan hist to repeat.. then she said.. sorry to say this but tony not good looking.. well.. at least i felt he is for mi.. =) hmmx.. told my da jie also what reen said then she said ya lorx.. also dunno why u find him good looking.. zzz.. my dajie where will knw what is good looking and not de.. haha.. then i purposely asked her.. then sunshine good looking mehx.. she say ya.. at least better than him.. hmmx.. i was like.. tot the 1st time i said sunshine quite good looking u said good looking mehx?!?! =,=" women.. changes mind super fast.. haha.. lolx.. =) hmmx.. my 3rd sis more funnie la.. when i tell her he ask mi rem to eat.. she said so good.. i was like so good? wat thing so good? haha.. then she said so concern la.. got chance liao.. faint.. =,=""
anyway, sianx.. my stupid 3rd sis.. morning 1st thing msn mi is tell mi.. she had a dream!!! and guessed what? she said she dreamt that tony came my place again... and she got so angry with mi... sighx.. impossible.. anyway.. dreams never happen in reality.. so.. sighx.. then also.. when i went to work, there was this uncle asking mi.. wan facai ma? haha.. he giving out the toto result slip la.. i said i nv buy.. but nevertheless i still took and see for fun.. guessed whats the 1st num i saw? 6 and 9.. sighx.. our anni date... i did buy before also.. haha.. wahx.. see liao sadx man!! argh! nvm...
sighx.. went for lunch with my 3rd sis today.. they was looking for a room rental at bunglow.. i mean they are trying to find one.. so we went around bunglows to see.. saw this car.. with the number 8185.. this was my yr and his yr.. used to bet on this number.. hoping it would open.. coz i felt if it open.. means we are meant to be.. but after so many yrs.. nv reali open.. hmmx.. felt really fen ci.. after break off liao.. so many things that relate mi and him turn up.. like that time i was looking at the sheng xiao thing for yr 2008.. it actually said rooster and cow perfect match! after being together for 5yrs.. never ever heard our sheng xiao perfect match sia! sighx.. dunno.. sadx.. cant help miss him.. sighx.. there was this auntie at prime market.. she talked abit like mother sia.. cant help made mi think of mother and missed her too.. sighx.. tired.. very tired.. really wish i could just lose my memory and start all over again.. dun wanna be remind of sadx memories... sighx..
Friday 22 February 2008,23:31:00
went for an interview today.. i like there.. but.. felt the chances of them taking mi seems low.. coz after interview mi, they went out to discuss for quite some time sia.. then end up came back said.. they got a few more interviews to consider first.. hmmx.. so if im shortlisted they will call mi in about a week times.. sighx.. sadx.. lolx.. anyway quite fun la the interview.. haha.. initially stress.. coz got 3persons sia.. but end up.. quite ok lorx.. they quite friendly and nice.. even joke.. =X the guy who makes mi feel stress most is also the guy who joke most.. =X the other two only laugh lolx.. well.. was hoping they take mi tho.. lolx.. want to start work soon!! hmmx.. morning was searching for my certs.. found them where i guessed they were.. and saw this clear file new.. just nice to put my certs.. hmmx so took it out.. while putting in the certs.. saw at the last page was these letter i wrote to him last time.. from the way i called him.. guessed its written super long ago.. maybe when we just got together or something? whatever.. read thru it.. then left it on bed.. wanted to read again when got home.. ya.. hmmx.. wahx.. went out at 8.40am.. reached home 1pm sia.. tired.. and bored! alone at home.. sighx.. no mood to eat also.. laid on bed.. read thru the letters.. started to think back again.. started to cry.. haha.. as usual.. sighx.. really wish someone would call mi and chat tho.. sighx.. anyway.. then my sms ring.. wow.. was surprised =D that bread guy sms mi.. haha.. but just a word hello.. heehee.. then i replied hello back? lolx.. i asked him why?he bored also arhx? haha.. then he replied no la he just woke up now going find his friend.. came home late ytd.. hmmx.. well.. dunno.. feeling kind of happie? haha.. ya.. does this means he miss mi too? =X well.. in any case.. at least he tot of mi rite? lolx.. it feels good when someone miss you or think of you man! =P ya.. maybe i think too much.. but still.. im glad! =) and after that.. i torn up those letters and threw them away! =) i miss mother.. i mean.. his mother.. ya.. we call her mother so.. im used to say mother.. haha.. anyway.. ya i missed her.. sighx.. i want my happiness!!
Thursday 21 February 2008,22:10:00
wow today was out almost whole day.. haha.. went out at 11am, reached home at 10pm.. hmmx..went suntec to buy sth, then had dim sum for lunch at this erm.. yam boat or sth de? forgot.. haha.. got one dim sum quite cute sia..
the prawn dumplings NICE man!! =P reali full of prawn.. yummy! then the prawn & char sao zhu chang fen also nice sia.. hmmx.. but exp worx.. eat dao lai.. $60plus lolx.. ben lai supposed dajie pay.. but end up kelvin paid coz cannot nets.. hmmx.. then after eat, went to buy the stuffs i want.. heehee.. fengshui items la.. lolx.. spent $38.70 heehee... then after buying, went to bugis for movie.. but the 1st thing reach there was to find one agent first.. haha.. quite nice that lady.. friendly and sweet.. ya.. hopefully tml's interview is a success haha.. then after that, went to see got what time show.. end up watched 4.15pm.. so we got half hr before the show haha.. then after the show, we went seoul garden for dinner =X but never eat much.. sobx.. tot can get to eat sushi haha.. but end up my sis still want eat seoul garden.. lolx.. then i realised.. seoul garden without deardear is BORING!! lolx.. hmmx.. nv eat much.. felt like so waste money to go eat that today sia.. =X hmmx.. anyway.. during the movie.. the bread guy got sms mi.. ask if i working today ma.. hmmx.. sighx.. wonder.. if i were at home.. not out with my sis.. would he ask mi out? lolx.. haha.. but even if that's really the case.. dun tink i dare go also ba.. lolx.. dun really dare go out with one person.. unless very close that kind.. haha.. if not normally i make sure at least 3 people together de hmmx.. sadx la.. haha.. after smsing with him.. felt super bored sia.. dunno why.. whole person no mood like that.. aiyox.. very paisei to kelvin sia.. always got to see my mood swing.. wahaha.. poor them.. =X paid for everything.. yet i always show them my face lolx.. paisei.. =Xytd went to have ch0u ch0u!!! so happie!! heehee... went with serser.. wahx.. sibei nice! but ordered too much food.. so end up.. sibei full til want vomit.. =X then after that i went home liao.. went coffeeshop drink with some prime colicks.. wahx.. i cant eat much of the wings also.. lolx.. hmmx.. i love to drink!! wahaha.. =D oh ya, anyway ser.. rem ytd i still say the shoe i wore no more pain? kaox.. today i wore again ma.. hmmx.. then when we walking out of the bugis mrt stn.. my sis was like asking kelvin.. eh.. is my sis feet bleeding? lolx.. =X then kelvin nudge mi said.. wei.. ur feet bled huh? u no feeling?? =X i turned and see.. wahx.. the blood dried up liao de.. then.. smeared til like the whole back of the feet lorx.. so erxin like that.. =X feel so damn paisei lehx.. ahaha.. then one lady suddenly walked up give mi plaster said.. miss u better paste one plaster if not later infection.. =X gosh.. felt damn paisei.. but really thankful to that kind lady sia.. she's so nice!! hmmx.. then sat outside kfc and clean my wound then paste the plaster... garfield de somemore haha.. hmmx.. anyway reali enjoyed ytd and today la.. but ytd was in great pain la.. =X until evening when we goin geylang then no more pain.. even when drinkin also no pain sia.. =X today morning a little pain.. but after that ok also.. haha..saw hui jun and foong li on sun at orchard sia.. so surprised.. hui jun now so pretty sia!! hmmx.. then mon saw pei ling.. a primary school frenx.. not really close coz nv same class.. but was really surprised she rem my name sia! so touched!!! =D she changed so much since the last few times i saw her.. coz.. last time she more lian kind ma.. now more si wen like that.. heehee.. she said i slim liao.. =X that time lijia also said that.. gosh.. then when went to find deardear godma.. they also say i slim a little liao.. =,="" then... ytd in lift, one of my neighbour took the lift with mi and ser.. she also keep say i slim liao.. touched my tummy somemore =X haha.. wow.. dunno i shud be happie or sadx tho.. lolx.. my target time is getting nearer and nearer.. yet.. i haven done anythin.. sighx.. jialut mi.. muz reali wake up sia!! stop living in misery man! wake up!! anyway.. went svc on sun.. wore that weird jacket.. was still rather afraid i look damn weird.. but somehowx.. ser mem keep saying hey val ur jacket looks nice.. hmmx.. i so paisei dunno wad to say also.. haha.. everytime someone praise mi or wad.. i will dunno wad to say de lolx.. then sis minghui cant believe i bought it at market lolx.. so funnie.. then she also said my hair color looks nice.. and they were surprised i said i color myself.. hmmx.. i nv find it nice tho.. but.. quite a few ppl say nice.. lolx..
Sunday 17 February 2008,21:56:00
hmmx.. this few days keep cant sleep well.. then felt like im getting weaker each day haha.. hmmx... teared almost everyday.. especially when im alone at home.. i can out of the sudden just cry out.. lolx.. sighx.. really need a job soon! cannot continue like this liao.. gonna turn crazy soon haha.. hmmx.. anyway.. on fri morning.. msn with him.. hmmx.. quite nice chatting with him la.. lolx.. then sat afternoon he called sia.. was surprised! super surprised.. tho he called just to say previous nitex when i sms him he slp liao.. so its like only 32sec of talk time.. but.. dunno why.. feel so nice and sweet haha.. siao la mi.. hmmx.. this morning sms alot with him.. was surprised.. ya.. by his sms.. today reali super alot.. haha.. hmmx.. he shared abit abt him and his ex with mi.. haha.. our last sms was.. he said next time free ask mi out for coffee, he love starbucks coffee.. lolx.. today.. somehowx he reali surprised mi alot.. coz twice i stopped reply liao.. then he sms mi.. coz normally i reply then he reply de ma.. lolx.. ya.. hmmx.. anyway still waiting for him to send mi his doggie foto.. heehee.. nice lehx.. eh.. when he was young.. haha.. next time he send liao i upload.. =P
this morning kena force to go svc with clara.. lolx.. ben lai say hao aft svc pei mi go eat ch0u t0ufu de.. =X but end up fellowship with cg.. so.. nv.. sis minghui bought mi one necklace! nice!!!
tried thousand times to take the pic =X
=D hmmx.. oh ya, my erjie give birth liao!! heehee.. 
chubby also.. like sami sia.. sami was 3.2kg when born.. she 2.9kg... hmmx... well.. today funnie la.. haha.. mi and clara were a joke sia..
when trying to visit my erjie.. i tot is at mount elizabeth haha.. so we went there.. then we tried finding the ward.. end up we were chased out of the delivery suite =X lolx.. wahaha.. so funnie.. then search and search.. finally ask my 3rd sis.. oops.. is at mount alvernia.. wahahaha... so stupid rite? sianx.. then wasted cab fare down lorx.. sighx.. hmmx.. super tired.. =X think going slp liao la haha.. hmmx..
Thursday 14 February 2008,23:57:00
hmmx.. he fever sia.. so kelian.. =X lolx.. then he nv claim mc one sia.. sighx.. i cant stand people like this.. =X sick means sick.. take mc rest well at home ma.. work so hard for what?!!! sighx.. anyway yesterday after work, went drink red wine with dajie and kelvin at park.. haha.. i dun fancy red wine =x no matter howx i drink and drink.. still find it sucks wahahaha... hmmx.. then my 3rd sis called.. then i kidding said 'aiyox y u call i waiting for sms lehx' hmmx.. then she asked whose?tt bread guy? have u ever thought what if he reject u? lolx.. i was like.. i nv say i wan pao him also wad.. zzz.. pig de.. then tt kelvin also funnie la.. hmmx.. coz was saying he finding frenx to intro my dajie ma.. then i said since u like so many lobangs.. find one intro mi also.. wahaha.. guessed what he say? 'tt sunshine guy not bad...' =X lolx.. faint rite? then keep tell mi tt guy veri nice and etc.. say he veri hardworking one.. hmmx.. sighx then i say.. mux also see people interested anot rite? as if he will be interested.. haha.. sighx.. then.. dunno why.. talked abt tony.. =X lolx. then i cried.. wahaha... im tired.. reali tired.. tired of thinking abt him.. tired of feeling sadx.. tired of crying.. i reali are.. but i still cant help myself why?!?! sighx.. deardear bf say.. orh be my bf leave mi.. long shud leave mi etc.. i also agreed.. tony dun wan mi is all i huo gai.. but why cant god be fair to mi.. i hate all this.. today valentine.. pei erjie go breakfast then see doctor then went foot massage.. when taking train all this.. saw couples.. holding flowers.. so good.. heard my sis talk abt my jiefu did for her tis valentine.. so envy.. haha.. tt's mi.. always envy people nia.. sighx.. cant help keep thinking.. what will he do be doin for her? sighx.. sadx.. reali sadx..anyway.. wahx.. was surprised la.. he dun buy 4d.. dun smoke all this de.. lolx.. haha.. hmmx.. dunno why.. feel the pain for him also.. i mean.. since he so nice.. why do his gf wan do tis to him? sighx.. oh.. and.. was kinda shocked that kelvin seems to knw alot abt him sia.. din knw they so 'close'? lolx.. hmmx.. sighx.. sianx.. i simply just.. hate my life... i still cant get out.. im jobless.. just still so useless.. sighx..
Wednesday 13 February 2008,09:37:00
lolx... ytd i actually forgot to take my dinner before goin work sia.. tink too used to work midnitex le.. everytime before goin work my parents will da bao for mi.. haha.. ytd 10plus, i was like.. err.. howx come my stomach feel weird weird de.. lolx.. then i realised ohh.. i haven eat lolx.. =X had kfc at 12pm, then tt's all.. haha... then aft work was thinking, hmmx.. wan slp le.. bett dun eat la.. lolx.. but end up i abt 4am then slp.. wahaha... hungry like siao.. =X then tis morning the agent call ask mi go an interview at 3pm.. then i was thinking wake up cook and eat since got time.. wau lau but suddenly 10plus she called.. asked if i could go down at 11.30am =X lolx.. end up hurry rush down go interview.. abt 2pm then i get to eat sia.. lolx.. more than 24hrs sia.. lolx.. hmmx.. i around 3am sms him once, then morning 9plus sms him again.. then when he replied he was like.. howx come u no need to slp one? lolx.. hahaha... hmmx... dunno y.. when sms or msn with him.. see the way he replied.. dun feel like is him like that lolx.. =X
Monday 11 February 2008,23:19:00
~cny~
wow, reali wanna thanks serser... coz not for her, i wun get to go anywhere or go bai nian.. lolx.. on fri nitex she was like smsing mi asking if i goin anywhere on sat.. coz she wanna jio mi go watch movie.. i was like oh ok great! then she was sayin like 4pm she goin ling's house bai nian.. wahaha then i thick skin asked if i could tag along.. hohoho... =P then she asked irene, irene said ok.. hmmx.. so sat i met ser at 11plus to take 172.. then we watched 1pm show.. so we shop around abit.. then ta bao long john into cinema haha.. then after the show, we went toilet make up.. erm.. she make up.. i touch up? lolx.. then we went irene house, but too bad.. her mom not at home =X haha.. then her bf drove us to ling house.. wow.. she slim alot dun she? then they played mahjong.. ben lai wanted meet deardear go her house de.. if i knew they gonna played til so late.. i would have go find u sia haha.. anyway, they finished the game at 8pm.. lolx.. then jason drove us to boonlay mrt stn.. hmmx.. saw mr lee weimin and ms kit lee sia.. mr lee got two daugthers le!! lolx.. pretty sia his daughter.. haha..
his younger daughter-8mths old
hmmx.. follow which, mi and ser took mrt to payar lebar, coz goin down to her ex boss pub bai nian.. haha.. i tag along coz.. got free drinks ma! wahahaha... =P i love to drink! gosh! miss drinking... hmmx... but maybe it was a bad idea of mi tagging along.. not bad for mi but.. bad for ser? hmmx.. tink my tagging along caused alot tingx? caused her good impression of that boss to change? lolx.. causing her to be late for service and etc? hmmx.. wadever... sighx.. but i love tt nitex! haha... coz everythin free... drink all i wan smoke all i wan.. lalala... tho i got drunk but hey.. at least i nv lost control ok! u nv see i lost control tt time.. even worst.. i reali bu xin ren shi de lorx.. haha.. wahx.. ser said i dun hold my liquor well.. hear liao buay songx.. wahaha.. wish i can get free drinks everyday, then can train my jiu liang... haha.. =Xhmmx.. suppose to go lijia house on sun 2plus de.. but end up morning 10plus then i reach hm.. then i slept til 2plus? lolx.. so nv go.. postpone to mon.. haha.. then met deardear at 4pm at railmall to visit her godma.. hmmx.. then went her godma house... wow she gave mi $10 ang bao.. so shocked sia.. haha.. then after that we went avan house.. play mahjong while waiting for his bro come home.. then 8pm i went home then they continued their mahjong.. hmmx.. whole day not feeling very good sia.. keep feel like wan vomit like that but.. keep cant vomit.. so no appetite to eat also.. but 9plus super hungry liao.. so ate some rice... wahx.. feel like puke.. hahaha... hmmx.. super tired sia.. haha.. morning 9plus my erjie called mi.. lolx.. she nv go work.. =,=" overslept.. haha.. end up asked mi over to her house.. went for kfc.. lolx.. then played with sami abit.. 
pretty rite? chuyi she wore this over here too..2pm i left coz goin lijia house.. hmmx.. tink i reached her place at 2plus 3 ba.. hmmx.. walked from my sis place.. lolx.. wow.. soo many years ago de path.. hengx i still rem a lil hahaha.. nv lost my way.. haha.. hmmx.. chatted with her til 5pm then got to rush liao.. lolx.. coz need to work at 6pm.. sianx... =X when i reached hm.. my dajie was like.. oh na got his num liao but kelvin nv say is u wan one.. zzz.. then i say i dun wan la! sianx diao.. told her many times liao.. wan him willin give mi then i take.. dun wan out of nowhere sms him rite? haha.. but while working.. i tink tink and tink.. hmmx.. wanted ask kelvin to call him ask if i wan his num can give ma.. but my sis ignore mi.. end up i asked her give mi the num.. haha.. when i finish work.. i sms him.. lalala... so damn happie!!!!!!!!! =D his 1st reply makes mi so damn happie lalala~ dunno why... mayb i tink too much.. but still happie... haha... now.. i got his num, i knw his name.. i even knw where he stay... lolx.. not i ask one.. he asked mi 1st.. heehee... so happie.. cant slp liao.. lolx.. =P
i sms ser say cant help keep tinking abt sat nitex.. then asked her tink no need bother to ask mi go church le la.. then she asked y.. hmmx.. then i replied... coz i realised i prefer tis kind of life.. i love to drink and stuffs.. i dun wanna lead her kind of life.. like being bond like that.. cant do tis cant do that.. then she asked.. do i love the world thingx more than i loved god? i wanted reply dunno maybe.. but i nv.. after long time thinkin then i replied... i prefer to do the things i like to do MORE THAN the things i dont like to do.. haha.. then she bo reply liao.. hmmx... sat nitex when we were talking outside de pub.. forgot wad i said le but aft tt she said.. life is unfair de la.. hmmx.. then i asked her this.. "howx can life be unfair when god is fair? or howx can god b fair when life is unfair?" then she said it depends on howx u tink de ma.. then i say nono.. dun change topic.. the thing now is.. one moment u can tell mi god is fair but next life is unfair? humans always like to say life is unfair.. so tell mi.. howx can god b fair when life is unfair? or howx can life be unfair when god is fair? then she diam diam.. hahaha... ser.. i was expecting u to say sth like.. the life unfairness are just trials and tests for us to go thru and grow stronger or etc de haha.. but u always go speechless lolx.. =) anyway, reali thanks for sat.. i reali feel so happie.. ya.. =)
Friday 8 February 2008,07:50:00
hate cny !!!!
sighx.. reali feel so depressed sia.. cny people go out bai nian.. go out all this.. only mi.. stay at home rot.. nothing to do, nowhere to go.. sibei sadx.. sighx.. then cant help keep think abt past.. past few years, coz of him.. my cny not so bored.. sighx.. reali feel so sadx and pathetic.. =X
Wednesday 6 February 2008,14:41:00
wow, new year eve le.. hmmx.. past two days never get to see him haha.. coz super busy... =X alot people sia.. lolx.. anyway angie asked mi help her work somemore coz they not enuf cashier lolx.. just now i tell her i dont want la pay so little hmmx.. she say give mi $4.10 hmmx.. anything lorx.. haha.. part time nia.. 6pm-11pm that kind.. sighx.. dunno still will get chance to see that bread guy ma haha.. sadx sia.. last two days also dun let mi see him.. =X
sighx.. having to keep reminding your own self that you are happie to stay happie is reali pathetic man! and im just so pathetic! =X feel so miserable.. feel so sadx inside of mi.. sighx.. hated it! hate my brain.. for consistantly thinking of him.. hate myself.. for crying.. and feeling so sadx... argh! hated everything! felt so useless.. after so much.. im still the same.. nv change.. argh...
sighx... nian shan de kuai le, bie ren kan de dao, xin li de tong you you shui zhi dao? why am i the only one feeling hurt here when he can simply enjoy his new love.. why is everything just so unfair to mi?howx can god be fair if life is always unfair? OR howx can life be unfair when god is fair? sighx.. i just wished.. miracle can just happen once again for mi.. just wanna be truly happie and stop feeling miserable.. he's a miracle for mi.. a gift given to mi.. but after so many years.. suddenly taken away from mi.. so sudden... i never know he would means so much and cause so much in my life... i didnt know i would be so affected... i never thought im the only one holding on.. people thought i wanted to die coz he dun wan mi.. wrong! coz in the 1st place i never wanted to live... i hate pains! and the pains is reali killing mi.. i cant take it.. i hate it.. so unfair! just so unfair!!!!!
Monday 4 February 2008,07:28:00
wow.. sat nitex i go work.. super tired.. keep dozing off.. coz sat morning nv slp at all.. plus.. tt nitex they busy.. left mi alone.. started work badly on sat.. felt super lousy and bad mood sia.. haha.. sianx.. but the sales was around $1160? lolx.. today one is $995.. not bad sia.. quite alot liao haha.. sianx.. tml nitex like veri scary sia.. they keep say alot alot ppl de.. lolx.. wahx.. anyway so fast.. two more nitex and i gonna say byebye le.. sadx.. cannot see that bread guy anymore.. lolx.. hahaa.. =P
anyway my sis not treating mi to mani and pedi le.. haha.. initially say just go westmall do the express de coz she broke.. then ok lorx.. sun de cancel.. then ytd she sms mi say.. or aft cny then treat mi la? coz she reali broke.. westmall de also need $30plus.. =,=" haha... thinking of go buy the stick on nails.. hmmx.. gosh haven pack room yet.. sianx.. two more days left.. die.. =X wahx.. anyway ytd i slept through the whole day sia.. from 8am til 10.35pm sia.. was late for work summore haha.. =P hmmx.. woke up twice.. 1st is when my dajie came back from work she off the air-con.. 2nd was 6plus when she asked mi wake up help her finish off 2 siew mai and 2 crystal dumpling for her.. =,=" i la ji tong sia.. lolx.. anyway after i help her finish.. i go back slp again.. hahaha... 1st time i slp so long without having headache lolx.. shiok sia.. hmmx..
Saturday 2 February 2008,22:04:00
no sleep again~
yesterday nitex quite ok.. tt ZY funnie sia.. reali like xiaohaizi haha.. 1st he played with crabs.. then.. he tried tying up one crab coz the string gone.. hmmx.. well.. sumhowx... the crab died after kena tied by him =X we dunno why also lolx.. then later in the nitex.. kelvin was putting something into the tool box of the fruits vendor.. then ZY saw this stapler.. they used to staple cloth onto table.. then he took and play.. lolx.. keep finding something to staple sia him.. haha.. like little kid found some new stuff like that.. so cute.. lolx.. hmmx.. kelvin cooked fried rice.. then got another lady brought down curry.. but no more meat le.. lolx.. the curry taste real nice! =P
after work, waited for travis to come over.. hmmx.. sumhowx.. tot of him again and teared.. sighx.. =X then supposed to meet irene 12pm de.. but 9plus i fell aslp sia.. 11pm then woke up.. hmmx.. so i sms her say meet 12.30 haha.. but while showering, my 2nd sis sms mi sia said she in hospital, gave birth liao.. kaox.. keep smsing with her while bathing =X hmmx.. then keep call her house to check with her maid.. kaox.. bluff mi sia.. hengx i smart.. check with her maid.. ah bo go down for nothing.. idiot.. =X hmmx.. but i was super late in meeting irene.. gosh.. she reach city hall liao mi just reach jurong nia =X so paisei.. end up we buy things from watsons jiu go off le.. coz she got class at 2pm.. hmmx.. i went bukit batok meet my 3rd sis.. pei her buy new year clothes for her n travis.. tired.. westmall dun have much that she fancy so she say go lot one sense hmmx.. but before that we went bukit panjang plaza pick up one shirt for jimmy at giordano coz earlier on at westmall de no more M.. haha.. then they shun bian bought some cny goodies at polar using voucher before we head off to lot one.. wahx.. got dress for mi sia.. so happie.. but my sis bought the same.. so no choice i buy black.. the one i tried is purple quite nice.. then she see not bad.. she also want try... =,=" dunno black nice anot.. i lazy try so just take =X hope its nice.. as in on mi.. haha.. then we went teck whye market eat dinner..after that i meet ser for awhile.. heehee... tot of just stay there wait til 11pm start work de.. end up 9.30 i buay tahan.. so came home to wash up.. haha... =D
Friday 1 February 2008,20:59:00
it's FEB!!!
wow... so fast sia.. one month of the year is gone.. gosh... sooo fast!!!! and im still jobless!!!! lolx.. hahaa... 1st time in my life.. im actually hoping to start work soon! few days back, suddenly have this urge.. wantin to hurry find a job and start work soon! haha.. i gave up that job at ser company.. hmmx.. last time my pattern sure will take up that job de.. coz i lazy and dun like go interview.. so just take.. haha.. but well.. i keep asking god.. should i take or should i not... i reali hate decision making de.. lolx.. i keep asking god to just help mi.. lead mi the path he have for mi sia.. haha.. i dunno.. i mean.. til now i still dunno what is the path he hav for mi or wan mi to take.. but sumhowx.. i give up that offer.. hmmx.. well.. tis morning i received one call from one agent.. asking mi if im still looking for job etc.. then afternoon she called back saying im selected for the interview on mon.. well thanks GOD! coz.. since i left soon hin.. i have been hoping to find one at bukit batok.. coz near my 3rd sis de hua.. i can get free ride home? =X wahahahaha... ya.. prayed this interview is good then.. lolx.. =)
yesterday kelvin first nitex work midnitex with us.. haha.. sianx sia.. end up buay tahan.. i bought peanuts at 2plus to eat.. haha.. need to keep myself awake sia.. gosh.. fattening sia work midnitex =X hmmx.. normally i will look forward to 5am de sia.. but not these two days.. coz.. hmmx... wahaha... he off... =X sianx.. i left few days see him nia.. he still off two days... why dun wan after cny then off sia.. =X let mi see him more ma.. sighx.. boring.. =X wahx.. so fast... next week cny le.. hmmx.. lalalala... i hate cny.. =X lolx... i hate festival now.. hahaha... sighx..
the prawn dumplings NICE man!! =P reali full of prawn.. yummy! then the prawn & char sao zhu chang fen also nice sia.. hmmx.. but exp worx.. eat dao lai.. $60plus lolx.. ben lai supposed dajie pay.. but end up kelvin paid coz cannot nets.. hmmx.. then after eat, went to buy the stuffs i want.. heehee.. fengshui items la.. lolx.. spent $38.70 heehee... then after buying, went to bugis for movie.. but the 1st thing reach there was to find one agent first.. haha.. quite nice that lady.. friendly and sweet.. ya.. hopefully tml's interview is a success haha.. then after that, went to see got what time show.. end up watched 4.15pm.. so we got half hr before the show haha.. then after the show, we went seoul garden for dinner =X but never eat much.. sobx.. tot can get to eat sushi haha.. but end up my sis still want eat seoul garden.. lolx.. then i realised.. seoul garden without deardear is BORING!! lolx.. hmmx.. nv eat much.. felt like so waste money to go eat that today sia.. =X hmmx.. anyway.. during the movie.. the bread guy got sms mi.. ask if i working today ma.. hmmx.. sighx.. wonder.. if i were at home.. not out with my sis.. would he ask mi out? lolx.. haha.. but even if that's really the case.. dun tink i dare go also ba.. lolx.. dun really dare go out with one person.. unless very close that kind.. haha.. if not normally i make sure at least 3 people together de hmmx.. sadx la.. haha.. after smsing with him.. felt super bored sia.. dunno why.. whole person no mood like that.. aiyox.. very paisei to kelvin sia.. always got to see my mood swing.. wahaha.. poor them.. =X paid for everything.. yet i always show them my face lolx.. paisei.. =X
when trying to visit my erjie.. i tot is at mount elizabeth haha.. so we went there.. then we tried finding the ward.. end up we were chased out of the delivery suite =X lolx.. wahaha.. so funnie.. then search and search.. finally ask my 3rd sis.. oops.. is at mount alvernia.. wahahaha... so stupid rite? sianx.. then wasted cab fare down lorx.. sighx.. hmmx.. super tired.. =X think going slp liao la haha.. hmmx.. 
