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Thursday 29 May 2008,22:49:00



this whole week no mood to work
dunno why, very slack~
shit! the new guy to replace RB
dun wanna the job!!!
dang!! howx.. so sad now.. =X
sue finally asked daniel to confirm mi,
she said she will talk to daniel tml
abt pay increment thing.. lolx..
well, lets see if she rem.. coz..
this confirmation thing, she took...
about two weeks then finally rem..
hahaha..hmmx.. having a bad time..
with one of the colleague..
whom i quite good with..
well..didnt mean to make things turn out tis way
but.. just.. really meant well by telling her how i feel
sighx.. dunno.. if she really dun wanna talk to mi
then its ok.. coz.. im tired of listening too..
the way she talk.. more like grumbles..
and im seriously tired..everyday on transport..
sure grumble the same thing about myint!
sighx.. sarah also not like that.. gosh~
zaiton said.. she so young only..
why grumble so much..? i dunno..
feel sad for her..hmmx...

anyway... =DDD
im back to maple~~~
hahah.. maple dar went back..
so he sms mi.. ask if i wanna join him
well i made him promise not to MIA
then i went back.. heehee..
he very cute sia..hmmx.. but in any case
think i will only login when he's in..
like now.. he's not in.. so.. i never too..
lolx.. coz in actual fact, i already stopped
for like a year plus? no strength to play..
also no heart la.. just to play with him..
then i will login hahaha... =P

tml meeting moonie and deardear...
lalala..shit.. mi did something sinful today
hmmx.. cannot say out.. not sure who got c tis blog
so better dun say.. haha.. deardear know..
tml moonie will know.. lolx.. she also anyway
hahaha.. not mi alone.. =X we are addicted?
nahx.. i hope not.. haha.. anyway..
truly praying that my job will be great!
oh gosh, please give mi strength and heart
and determination to work better!!!
angry mi!!! just 2months and.. im sianx..
and slacking!! oh god!!! cannot!!!!!!
angry myself man!!! argh!!!
wake up!!! howx much longer u gonna waste!
argh!!! stupid woman!!! =X

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~



Monday 26 May 2008,23:52:00



wow, so long nv blog already sia...
hmmx.. so much to say.. so much happen..

but.. lazy to.. lolx.. =X
never mind.. past is past.. no point blog =X
well, shall just talk about latest..


had a very busy day on sat..
morning woke up go for work..
after work, went je with joy
walk around for like half an hour? =X
then went suntec to find sherly
a new frenx i made while workin pt promoter
went break with her for an hr, then stood at
carrefour chit chat with her til 4plus
josephine reached liao come find me..
me and josephine each bought 3bars choco
haha.. then went window shopping..
walked past the faceshop, then she went in..
to buy her blush, then shun bian she want buy lip gloss
but the color she using no longer produces...
so she asked the gal to find similar one, then
after got one, she looked at mi then turn to the gal
for her skin color what color lip gloss suit her..
then asked to find one for mi.. =X
then i kidding wahx u reali wanna b my sis arhx
haha.. coz she always said.. i her sister also ma..
hmmx.. we shopped til 7plus then she hungry liao
so we went to look for her xin wang cafe..
haha...after eating, we chit chat for quite sometimes
then asked for our dessert... mango snow ice!!
wow,guess what?we finally finished it aft an hr sia =X
haha.. cold like what.. from toes to hand lorx.. =X
she treated mi.. hmmx.. thanks!! told her.. this sat
if she can meet again.. i treat her movie.. haha..
she very nice la..tho 8yrs age gap..but..we talked alot
she shared alot with mi too.. and tells mi alot...

anyway, was late in meeting moon reen & deardear
haha... paisei la.. coz chatting ma..
then i paisei say need go so ehh..
well..left at about 10pm sia.. haha..
so reached home.. hurry pack some stuffs,
washed my face.. then went down to bus stop
wait for reen and avan fetch.. haha.. =P
hp no batt sia.. auto off.. =X anyway...
so long nv drink.. haha.. loved it.. esp..
with u gals.. =DDD moon was saying..
wait for her mom go msia.. then we go over again
haha.. reen like cant wait for it la.. lolx.. =P
4plus we left.. avan came to fetch again.. lolx...
so sweet rite? reen.. u r so blessed la!! =)
cherish oh... hmmx.. moon dug out some ehh..
eye shadow and eye liner give mi.. =,="
initially i said dun need, i no use dun waste..
give ur frenx who got use la.. then tink she abit piss
so she said aiya shuang liao.. force is no use one...
then she dump all into the pouch again..
but dunno why.. after that.. deardear and her..
dug again.. =,=" deardear had.. already.. given mi..
ALOT!!! =,=" all kept and kept.. haha.. til they..
sianx diao.. haha.. paisei la.. hmmx.. ehh.. give mi..
ehh.. few more months.. lolx.. =X i like keep sayin
few more mths sia.. today sms with deardear..
talkin abt sunshine again.. then dear said..
asked him go out with u la.. i was like..
u knw i dun dare wad.. wait few more months la.. =X
hahah..anyway.. hmmx.. i like him.. hahaha...
lalala...i decided that.. i likes him.. =P
and also.. i decided that.. im letting go of past!
im serious.. and i mean it! now all i need is..
my determination!!! @"@
lolx.. so i can reali work up to slim down and be pretty
lolx.. i taking up a short beauty course...
teach basic skin care, make up etc.. =)
starting in june.. well.. that's y i keep say..
few more months.. coz i think the course can finish
by july or aug.. hoping by then i slim a bit too.. hehe..

i need strong determination! real strong ones!
hmmx..july is ur birthday.. and i decided..well..
to give u my last birthday present and blessing..
and from then on.. i shall delete you from my memory
and delete you from everything..coz now then i know..
we can never be frenx..i used to dont believe..
noel eva told mi..coz once so much in love,aft break
can never be frenx again.. i dont believe... but now..
i know it does applies to mi.. so i decide that..
in order to let go of past..
frenx no more then.. as.. a simple conversation
makes mi cry and heartache too..
even after so long.. half year already.. we didnt even
talk about anythin personal.. but.. im sadden!
so from that day on, i know.. i cant even be ur frenx..
so now im waiting for july..
to give you my last blessings..
and from then on, i shall free myself.. =)))

i will fight for my own happiness from now on..
i likes him.. and i shall fight for it.. lolx..
ya.. =D last chance for myself.. giving myself
another 3months.. by aug, i must ehh.. slim a lil..
lolx.. make up.. ehh.. dress up.. be prettier, be happy!
hahaha.. i know i can de.. coz i got my gals with mi..
deardear moonmoon and reenreen..
heehee.. i always said.. i cant do w/o u gals in my life
and i seriously mean it!!! =) *huggies*

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~



Wednesday 7 May 2008,00:47:00
~mY biRthDay~



treated some good frenx to swensons
picture taken by swensons camera
was glad you people made it...
reali enjoyed myself that day...

i think one of the happiest birthday i had
or the very only happiest birthday?
not sure.. but can say rarely happy one!
=) was touched too.. coz...
i got the biggest chior in swensons that day
and im the only one with balloon!!!
haha.. love the balloon damn lots!
reali nice... =DDD

i witness another two birthdays there too
but maybe coz their is only 4people
so the 'chior' for them also small..
lolx..mine practically almost half the staffs
hahaha.. plus.. my frenx sang real loud =X
then also..reali, im the only one with BALLOON!
hahaha.. not sure why..maybe bigger cake purchased?
haha..also.. this year birthday presents....
are more than what i had ever received! =P
loved them...deardear and m00nie
bought a bag cum wallet.. thanks!
they are always never calculative or stingy
with mi.. thanks alot.. for always being there
for mi.. and with mi!!! =)

my dajie and kelvin also very nice..
they purposely went down to bugis
wanting to buy mi the doraemon drawers
and they had already planned for one month
but.. =X sadx to say.. they couldnt find the cart
so end up they bought precious moments one
one of it is musical de.. well.. 1st time in my life
i receive musical box thing.. thankx..
sadx that it wasnt from a boyfriend tho
haha...but still i like it alot~





reen and avan got mi on set of necklace with earrings
very cute.. angel de.. heehee.. thanks gal..
and thanks for always making the effort to join us
whenever we asked you out.. =D *hugs*

serser and irene got mi a necklace too.. heehee..
heart heart... lucky u gals 'asked' for my opinion
haha.. i like hearts! and cross.. but cross need choose
not all will draw my attention.. but heart easier..
ehh.. i dun reali lik diamond shape etc.. lolx.. =P
serser, so many years le.. u still the same..
not good at pretending.. or.. i knw u too well?
haha..too obvious la u.. lolx.. but thanks gals
for coming.. =)))


oh and well well..
dont forget the sport shoes erjie bought
and my W580 is paid by sanjie..
and also ang bao from parents.. =DDD
yupx yupx.. =) oh, & God gave mi one present too
on the sunday, just two days before my birthday
i saw him.. haha..its been like ehh...
3months since i last seen him.. miss him..
tho i wishing so much that on my birthday
i would invite him along.. but i failed..
coz i never slim down la.. sadx!
then that kelvin also wont auto.. =X
deardear also asked.. howx come he..
cannot pretend pretend talk to him
then say mehx.. so not auto.. haha..
well.. i tot so too u know? sads...
but never mind.. i still got to see him..
for the few mins.. =X still hoping for the day
whereby i would ask him out etc.. =X haha...

oh, and.. ehh.. he called deardear...
haha.. just a birthday greeting also need ask
whether should you wish mi? well.. but still..
thanks.. at least.. u rem.. not that heartless..
but frenx said.. just a greeting..means nothing..
no need be happie..ya i know.. just glad..
afterall.. ehh..dunno.. haha.. dunno wad to say
hmmx..oh and also.. got a few surprises blessing
like sherly from sec sch, lester - my band senior..
someone i liked last time.. haha.. we had been
like keeping in contact since sec til now..
but i think first time he wish mi man! lolx..
and also..aiko jie!!! =))) was reali happie la..
and surprised and touched! =)

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~



Sunday 4 May 2008,21:14:00
bdAy ceLebRati0n with FAMILY!


tReAted wh0Le fAmiLy t0 sAkUrA f0r mY bDay~
n0t bAd, w0rth t0 go... =)
at least my family enjoyed.. =)
the chocolate ice cream there nice!
and the durian puff!! super nice!!!

samantha love the durain puffs!!
keep wantin one after another~
and travis ate up the dorayaki
i took for myself to try.. =,="


super packed! lucky i ask sister book first
haha..when reached, saw queue somemore =X
spent like ehh.. $200plus.. not veri exp la..
want to go again !!! heehee...
after eating, went lot one with erjie
wanted to buy tigh for aerobics
then erjie fu buying her bracelet
for her coming birthday.. heehee..
she damn happie la.. heehee..
oh.. end up she still buy sport shoes for mi
THANKS!!! really happie.. was thinking
nvm la.. should still be thankful with
whatever you gave mi... =P heehee...




l0lx, 4candles so it took 4persons to blow
hahaha... xD

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~








































♥ mE ^^ ♥




naMe : vaLvaL
spEciaL dAy : 06 May 1985
fAv : d0raEm0n
stAy :
tEck wHyE
2009 sEcrEt :
w0 dE mimi







-behind the veil-

p3acel0ver
jUz a vEry siMpLe gaL
wHo bElieVe iN miRacLes,
yEt dUn beLieVe miRaCleS wiLL hAppEn oN hErseLf..
beLieVes iN eVeRyoNe,
aNyoNE bUt nOt hErseLf.. =X
lOvE tO hAvE mOrE fRenZ~! XD




~mEm0riEs~
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-hEaRtaChEs-

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go



~分手就象 失去翅膀~
~想遍着你 的我~
~飞不到原来 的方向~
~每当象现在 我感觉到悲伤~
~我会努力 让你走的方式飞翔~

只要相信,就会看见幸福的绿光
ღ~谁能给我 一支神奇的锁~ღ
ღ~轻轻一开 就让寂寞飞走~ღ
好希望有人教我怎么忘记伤痛





I just can't understand
the ways of all the men
and their mistakes
You give them
all your heart
And then they
rip it all away

You told me how much
you loved me
And how our love
was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that
you would set me free

You should've just
told me the truth
That I wasn't
the girl for you
Still,
I didn't have a clue
So my heart
depended on you, whoa~

Although I'll say
I hate you now
Though I'll shout
and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man
will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all,
still I just cry

Never again
will I be fooled
To give my all
when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold How could this be
I tot that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage
of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will u please take it all away

Never tot being born a girl
How i can love you
and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again



【我会学着放弃你】
【是因为我太爱你】



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IPL pErm hAir rEm0vaL =X
yUnNam HL tReatMent =X
tEEth whitEniNg???
lEarN t0 siNg
leArn t0 pLay piAn0
gEt my dRiviNg LicEnsE
g00d j0b
sLim d0wN
g00d tEmpEr
g0ld hEaRt
MORE g00d fRenx
nEw bEd
fiRst diGitaL cAm!
gReAt sKin c0mpLex
0wn's cAr
0wN's chRistiAn caFe
peaCe on eArtH
HAPPINESS





~♥~cHit-chAt~♥~



*beyond just me*

N317

dEarDeaR
m00nm00n
dEarEst wEndY
angeline
cLaRa bia0mei
nAt
swEEt qiNsi
sErsEr
mApLe di~




-~g0aLs 0f tHe yEaR~-

leArN t0 L0vE MYSELF!♥
LeaRn t0 bE hAppiE
sLim d0wN
bE m0Re c0nfidEnt
caRe m0Re f0r othErs♥
cLeAr aLL dEbtS N saVe up
g0 t0 tAiwAn bY dEc!!









y0u caNNot juDge a tRee,
0r a peRs0n,
by onLy oNe sEas0n,
aNd thAt tHe essEnce
of wHo thEy aRe
aNd tHe pLeasUre,
j0y, aNd loVe
tHat coMe fRom
thAt Life
cAn onLy bE
mEasUred at tHe eNd,
whEn aLL thE
sEas0ns aRe up.
IF y0u giVe uP
whEn it's wiNter,
y0u wiLL miss tHe
pr0miSe oF yoUr spRing,
thE beaUty
oF youR sUmmEr,
fuLfiLmeNt oF
y0ur faLL.
Don't Let tHe pAin
0f oNe sEas0n
dEstr0y tHe j0y
oF aLL tHe reSt.
Don't jUdgE LifE bY onE
diFficuLt seAsoN.

PerSevEre thRouGh
tHe difFicuLt pAtcHes
aNd beTTer tiMes
aRe suRe t0 coMe
soMe tiMe.

Live SimpLy
Love GenEroUsLy.
CaRe DeepLy.
SpEak KiNdLy.
LeavE tHe ReSt
TO G0D.


Happiness keeps You Sweet
Trials keep You Strong
Sorrows keep You Human
Failures keep You Humble
Success keeps You Glowing
BUT
Only God keeps You Going