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Wednesday, 6 February 2008,14:41:00



wow, new year eve le.. hmmx.. past two days never get to see him haha.. coz super busy... =X alot people sia.. lolx.. anyway angie asked mi help her work somemore coz they not enuf cashier lolx.. just now i tell her i dont want la pay so little hmmx.. she say give mi $4.10 hmmx.. anything lorx.. haha.. part time nia.. 6pm-11pm that kind.. sighx.. dunno still will get chance to see that bread guy ma haha.. sadx sia.. last two days also dun let mi see him.. =X
sighx.. having to keep reminding your own self that you are happie to stay happie is reali pathetic man! and im just so pathetic! =X feel so miserable.. feel so sadx inside of mi.. sighx.. hated it! hate my brain.. for consistantly thinking of him.. hate myself.. for crying.. and feeling so sadx... argh! hated everything! felt so useless.. after so much.. im still the same.. nv change.. argh...
sighx... nian shan de kuai le, bie ren kan de dao, xin li de tong you you shui zhi dao? why am i the only one feeling hurt here when he can simply enjoy his new love.. why is everything just so unfair to mi?howx can god be fair if life is always unfair? OR howx can life be unfair when god is fair? sighx.. i just wished.. miracle can just happen once again for mi.. just wanna be truly happie and stop feeling miserable.. he's a miracle for mi.. a gift given to mi.. but after so many years.. suddenly taken away from mi.. so sudden... i never know he would means so much and cause so much in my life... i didnt know i would be so affected... i never thought im the only one holding on.. people thought i wanted to die coz he dun wan mi.. wrong! coz in the 1st place i never wanted to live... i hate pains! and the pains is reali killing mi.. i cant take it.. i hate it.. so unfair! just so unfair!!!!!

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~








































♥ mE ^^ ♥




naMe : vaLvaL
spEciaL dAy : 06 May 1985
fAv : d0raEm0n
stAy : tEck wHyE
2009 sEcrEt : w0 dE mimi







-behind the veil-

p3acel0ver
jUz a vEry siMpLe gaL
wHo bElieVe iN miRacLes,
yEt dUn beLieVe miRaCleS wiLL hAppEn oN hErseLf..
beLieVes iN eVeRyoNe,
aNyoNE bUt nOt hErseLf.. =X
lOvE tO hAvE mOrE fRenZ~! XD




~mEm0riEs~
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-hEaRtaChEs-

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go


~分手就象 失去翅膀~
~想遍着你 的我~
~飞不到原来 的方向~
~每当象现在 我感觉到悲伤~
~我会努力 让你走的方式飞翔~

只要相信,就会看见幸福的绿光
ღ~谁能给我 一支神奇的锁~ღ
ღ~轻轻一开 就让寂寞飞走~ღ
好希望有人教我怎么忘记伤痛




I just can't understand
the ways of all the men
and their mistakes
You give them
all your heart
And then they
rip it all away

You told me how much
you loved me
And how our love
was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that
you would set me free

You should've just
told me the truth
That I wasn't
the girl for you
Still,
I didn't have a clue
So my heart
depended on you, whoa~

Although I'll say
I hate you now
Though I'll shout
and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man
will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all,
still I just cry

Never again
will I be fooled
To give my all
when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold How could this be
I tot that you'd only love me

Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage
of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will u please take it all away

Never tot being born a girl
How i can love you
and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again



【我会学着放弃你】
【是因为我太爱你】


♥ Wishlist ♥

laVendEr pUrpLe sLim pSp
IPL pErm hAir rEm0vaL =X
yUnNam HL tReatMent =X
tEEth whitEniNg???
lEarN t0 siNg
leArn t0 pLay piAn0
gEt my dRiviNg LicEnsE
g00d j0b
sLim d0wN
g00d tEmpEr
g0ld hEaRt
MORE g00d fRenx
nEw bEd
fiRst diGitaL cAm!
gReAt sKin c0mpLex
0wn's cAr
 0wN's chRistiAn caFe
peaCe on eArtH
HAPPINESS





~♥~cHit-chAt~♥~



*beyond just me*

N317

dEarDeaR
m00nm00n
dEarEst wEndY
angeline
cLaRa bia0mei
nAt
swEEt qiNsi
sErsEr
mApLe di~




-~g0aLs 0f tHe yEaR~-

leArN t0 L0vE MYSELF!♥
LeaRn t0 bE hAppiE
sLim d0wN
bE m0Re c0nfidEnt
caRe m0Re f0r othErs♥
cLeAr aLL dEbtS N saVe up
g0 t0 tAiwAn bY dEc!!









y0u caNNot juDge a tRee,
0r a peRs0n,
by onLy oNe sEas0n,
aNd thAt tHe essEnce
of wHo thEy aRe
aNd tHe pLeasUre,
j0y, aNd loVe
tHat coMe fRom
thAt Life
cAn onLy bE
mEasUred at tHe eNd,
whEn aLL thE
sEas0ns aRe up.
IF y0u giVe uP
whEn it's wiNter,
y0u wiLL miss tHe
pr0miSe oF yoUr spRing,
thE beaUty
oF youR sUmmEr,
fuLfiLmeNt oF
y0ur faLL.
Don't Let tHe pAin
0f oNe sEas0n
dEstr0y tHe j0y
oF aLL tHe reSt.
Don't jUdgE LifE bY onE
diFficuLt seAsoN.

PerSevEre thRouGh
tHe difFicuLt pAtcHes
aNd beTTer tiMes
aRe suRe t0 coMe
soMe tiMe.

Live SimpLy
Love GenEroUsLy.
CaRe DeepLy.
SpEak KiNdLy.
LeavE tHe ReSt
TO G0D.


Happiness keeps You Sweet
Trials keep You Strong
Sorrows keep You Human
Failures keep You Humble
Success keeps You Glowing
BUT
Only God keeps You Going