jUx wAnnA bE hAppiE

Monday, 30 June 2008,01:22:00

tired sia..today went out whole day also =,="
went out at 11.30am..
reached home abt 11pm =X
lolx..never expect will come home so late
hahaha..but great la..we shall meet out more..
went sentosa with ec,yan,nana,xc & xc frenx
stupid xc late!! angry..made mi waited an hr
at je station sia..sat there for an hr like wad..
sighx..but lucky ok la..i nv scold him or anythin
if not spoil the day..heehee..
nana very cute..she tot go beach..
she wan go sun tan..end up we say nv..
she almost wanted faint..haha..
but then..she brought so much thing le
so we pei her sun tan awhile lorx..
mi ec and xc sat one side talk..
heehee..after that we walked around
took some pictures.. =)
then we did air spray tatto lolx..
one on the back of neck and one..
on the rite side of my front lolx..
but she put too high le la..
not nice =,="
then wanted go under water world
but xc gtg le..sadx.. =X
so mi ec yan nana go ourselves
smelly.. =X and packed!!
sianx..cannot stand it haha..
somemore..packed with..ma lai ren
ehh..nono..wrong is yin du ren =,="
gosh..almost suffocate inside.. =X
then after that we went vivo
eat long john..lolx..everyone tired..
but still.. =,=" shop around abit..
haha..til about 10pm then go off..
they took train i took 188 hee...
happie to see them today man!
but sadx..not goin see xc anymore
sighx..less one person to dote on mi
lolx~

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Sunday, 29 June 2008,02:55:00

wow..today is reali a pampered day
ahaha...ytd went steamboat..
with moon,pras,reen,pinky, avan
hmmx..aft that i went moon house
then this morning 10plus woke up..
went eat wanton mee downstair
then i went home she go work..
reached home 1st thing..
check acc..wohoo~
salary in liao..wahaha..
went downstair..
do my under arm waxing
and whitening mask..hee..
then bought one whitening toner
to tone under arm =X
after that..went cine to find moon
hmmx..3.30 we got appt for brazilian
ohhoo..excited..hahaha...
well..still ok..coz.. =,="
mine not so much =X
moon jiu pain daooo siao.. lolx..
then bought one whitenin serum =x
aft that we took cab rush to holland
for our mani and pedi..end up..
actually no need rush =,=" faint
haha..coz the mani pedi is one man show
so waited very long..pras and her cousin
also there..so 4 of us.. =X one lady =X
lolx..by the time finish 9plus liao!!
took cab home..reached hm abt..
10pm..gosh..nv eat dinner..haha..
login maple..was super hungry inside..
panda keep ask mi go eat i dun wan..
so late liao =X then i from 12plus
say wan go off liao etc..
til almost 3am..lolx..then panda was like
he bett go off if not i wun.. faint..
haha..so i slept aroung 4am.. ^^

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Friday, 27 June 2008,00:26:00

hmmx..actually planned hao hao
wanted buy bday present
for him and his mother de..
even plan hao hao with moon
pei mi shop then on sat..
go sheng siong find his mother de
but, today went the makeup class
wanted buy so many products
then i start to wonder..is it worth
haha.. then i asked moon..
moonie said..actually..alr break
no point etc... hahaha..
then josephine tell mi sth
which woke mi up..
she said..u buy present for them
they wun feel u good gal..
rather, they will think..
y u keep perstering.. =X
sadx sia..then i decided not to
haha..half of mi reali wanted so much
to buy one last present for them
but half of mi selfishly want to
buy things for miself.. lolx..
anyway jospehine dun let mi buy
she say..u bett dun buy for them horx
if not i abish u..save the money
pamper urself..hahaha.. =D
so..final decision will be...
buying things for MYSELF!!
hahahahahahahahahahaha..

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Thursday, 26 June 2008,00:27:00

omg..cant imagined i worked til so late
plus im actually sick !!!
sobs...mon actually went mc..
then tues i worked til 10.30pm sia
reached home about 11pm..
argh.. was reali struggling while working man
damn sick lorx..head pain like hell man!
keep on applying medical oil =x
even sms moon and deardear help!!
lolx..reali cant tahan..but..sobs..
cant go home until i finish keying
sad la..keep scolding that pig =X
sighx..miss him la actually..
even dreamt of him on tues morning =,="
but in dream, we also quarrel lolx..
hahaha.. today worked til 8pm...
tired..tot can go back early..
then when 5.15pm like that..
i see works keep coming in
so i ask..i go home 5.30 or later
she said..after 5.30 laaaa....
lolx..bo bian.. sianx sia.. =x
they also nv say anythin abt
my confirmation...eek!
damn angry la.. =x
sianx..just now met moon..
haha..we really meet 3x a week sia
almost la..hahaha..
hope wont suddenly fade off =x
hmmx..she say tml go steamboat..
but i got the class lei..fri u cant also
haha..oh ya just now reen called
ask if wanna go geylang makan
but moon mai..she tired..
feel bad to reject reen sia..
i miss my chou chou sobs!!!
hmmx..sat meeting moon again
heehee..she said..
skali dun need sat..tml jiu meet liao
hahaha..lets see ba.. =D

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Sunday, 22 June 2008,01:20:00

wow, so long nv played maple
til morning liao.. =X
damn tired.. =X
never sleep then go work
gosh..ended up i go work
like never go like that..
coz never do anything much
as i keep doze off like hell liao.. =x

then after work,
went for treatment..
even when she talkin to mi
i dozed off sia..lolx..
then slept in steambath worx..
lolx..but think the heat quite high =x
plus i nv slp nv eat
cum my stomach recently not veri good
wow..i start to feel unwell..
last few mins i cant tahan
i stop steaming and open the glass door
when finally stop..i tot faster shower
then leave de..but omg..i cant move
feel so much like vomiting..
lucky after a min or so, the gal came in
to see everythin ok ma..
then i tell her i feel like puke
she asked i nv eat arhx..
then she shouted faster take a plastic come
serious..urgent... lolx
then suddenly one by one they come in see
then when i sit up, i felt so giddy..zzz..
then they took towels dry mi and wrap mi
brought mi to the facial bed rest..
fed mi sweet and 'tang shui'?
i slept for half an hr before i get up
haha..so paisei sia.. =x
everyone also see mi liao =x
keep come in ask if i ok ma.. lolx..
then when i wan leave, the manager
even asked if anyone pickin mi up
lolx..i wish i have =,="
sighx..i got no one to la..
not so good life..haha..
even i die there..maybe no one bother =x
hmmx..sianx..didnt know that..
nv eat go treatment will die de worx..
but life is like that..
the time is not up yet
jiu shi not up..
wont die de.. =)

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Sunday, 15 June 2008,13:02:00

w0w..
cant believe i actually will do this
go down espcially to find moon
the place i dont like to go
the time i dont like to go out
and somemore im alone!!
l0lx..i told moon..its a miracle man
l0lx..she should be honoured haha..
went out on fri nitex 9pm
went down cine to find her off work..
which is like..11pm? l0lx..then
we had drink at gloria jeans..
then took last train to her home..
reached her house i think..ehh..1plus?
forgot..then talk cock sing song
waste a bit of time..finally 2plus
she went shower =x
3am we went her bro room
watch supernatural..haha..
4plus she said tired liao..but
was halfway thru the show..
so its like..they see i wanna watch
we finished the one we watching
before we pack up back to her room..
end up..we lied down..talk and talk
7am then finally slept.. ahaha..
she geng mc.. =x nv go work..
11am her boss called then we woke up..
after that, we shower all these..
think at about 1pm..then finally we got out..
went westmall for sushi..thanks gal... =)
after lunch, we went her mei house
play monopoly l0lx..the game i dun like to play
haha..think we reached her house abt 4pm?
played til like 5plus..no more greentea
so sky and wh went westmall to buy
mi and moon stayed home to guard lolx..
after they came back..they cooked..
prata, sausage, waffles, scrumbled egg,
and a lil of 2types kimchi..
i always tot i dun like kimchi worx..
but the cabbage one nice..
yummy !!! =P
after eating, i washed up the dishes..
then we continue our game..til like 7pm?
then we cleared up, rest a lil..
then 8.30 or so we left her place..
haha..one more hr plus..moonie..
i spent 24hrs with u le.. hahaha.. =P
1st time i spent the nitex at frenx house..
1st time i slept at a frenx bed worx.. =X
hahaa..anyway think im reali addicted la..
esp since i do the way reen taught..
omg.. =P i love it~~~~
lalalalalala...hahaha..
ytd maple til 4.30am..heehee..
dar got mi the necklace sia..
before he wan log out, he asked mi to fm..
then drop mi and say gei ni de
haha..so happie.. =P
went mc with the guild..but..
i dun like.. =X i kill too slow..
sighx..so its like..the other pt is the strong one
but purposely let my team win so can lvl..
so he sit there see i kill..as the other mem dc
left mi alone to kill..then omg..
stress..i dun like..still prefer tt time
1st time mc with xl..lolx..and 2nd time de also not bad
ytd de reali sucks.. =X then i left the game
say dun wan play..he asked y.. i dun wan reply..
haha..the panda nice la..as in..
in the game he is nice =X
initially when i pm him say i wan mc..
he was like..tot u say dun wan mi =x
haha..i replied xl nv mc..he was like..
i dun wan be his spare tyre f3
haha..then i was like..oh..
my reply is mean.. =x hahaa...
but still he brought mi to mc..
haha...i miss rebels.. oops.. =x
sighx..sianx...

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Thursday, 12 June 2008,00:01:00

who can tell mi wad to do
wad can i do
how shud i do?
tired..why am i so useless
always only know how to say
use mouth say
use mind think
but no action?
people met with big blow
will start to buck up
and work hard..
but mi?
a year passed
and here i am
still at square one
used mind think alot
mouth say ALOT
but..
action none!
why am i always so useless?
even til this point of time
even til i lost everything
even til the lowest already
why am i still the same?
idiot mi..
who can tell mi
how to make myself wake up
how to make myself buck up
ass..damn upset with myself
sighx..reali damn sadx..
tired..hated myself..
all i can say is tired..
but nothing..i also tired..argh!
idiot mi..slap mi man!!!! ARGH!
hate myself..reali hate myself..
sighx...

anyway today received a sms from him
i was like..wow he sms mi?
like a lil happie.. but when i read
chey..asked mi for kelvin num nia
lolx..sadx..sighx..nvm forget it
told myself to stop daydreaming
never possible for us also..
sighx..sianx..

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Monday, 9 June 2008,21:46:00

had a funnie dream..
not sure if its happie or sad one
i dreamt that he asked mi out
i dreamt that i agreed to..
i dreamt that i was so excited
getting prepared to meet him..
i dreamt til so real..lolx..
he called asking where am i
i was like..ehh..at home
about to go out..
he was like laughing then said
ok call you back in 2mins..
the feeling is like as though
he will be coming to fetch mi
since im still at home..
and i dreamt that...
i waited for his call...
waited and waited...
like no ending like that..
til my dream is over..
til i woke up... =X
sighx...so..
can anyone tells mi..
is this a happie dream
or a sadx one? =X

i misses him.. lolx..
yeah tml on leave..
but..
cant slp late also.. =,="
cant maple whole day also =X
im back into mapling
ohhoo~
got mi a guild..
an ex guild..
but not the one with him in it
ya..lvl damn low..arghh..
all the ppl in there..
lvl damn high..kaox..
im gonaa chiong sia.. =X
wanna lvl up and up and up!!
heeheee.... =P

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Sunday, 8 June 2008,23:51:00

ytd went to meet moon & dear
aft last min decision
we watch 12am kungfu panda
damn funnie la..can luff til pengx!
can watch..esp if u need to relax
haha..ytd aftn..kind of break down
for nothing..but sista came back..
so is like..less than a min..
i stopped..but!!!
today..i cried for like half an hr?
lolx..for nothing..cried and cried..
felt like, been kinda long since i did..
so... ya.. =X felt so useless..and tired..
sighx..everytime i cried..til the point
very serious type..i would sure
call out deardear..haha.. =)
everyone's crying..deardear is..
moonmoon is..sighx..i cant do anythin..
sighx..im veri tired..all of a sudden..
im veri tired again..and..wanna give up..
wth am i doing?!
on surface..i seems doin bett than used to..
recently been going out at nitex
to meet moon and deardear..
which i usually dont do so..coz..
i nv like going out too late..as in..
i dont like step out of house too late..
i dont mind coming home late but
i dun like meetin too late..dunno y
but tt's mi..so last time..
everytime go out too late..
i will start throw temper..which now
i think back..i felt so stupid!
sighx whatever... hmmx..
why am i thinking again?!?
arghh..idiot mi..
oei! wake up! wth!!!

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Wednesday, 4 June 2008,19:36:00

today went weighbridge
to learn from rongbin his work
but end up,less than an hr
i went back office haha..
poor rongbin.. =X but he's very nice
hmmx..ya lorx..so funnie..
come and think of it..so weird la
normally we two talk always bicker de
today he so gentle like that
i so not use to it..haha..
well,coz think he see i not happie
so everythin also let mi..
normally i say hate him..
he sure will say seriously i nv ask u to like mi
but today..he nv say anythin..then
got one time i ignore him and look out
he asked..u reali hate mi arhx..
sighx..sianx..i tear out sia =X
dang! and he saw..arghh!!!
idiot mi..why my tears always roll so fast
sighx..was thinking,why miracles..
always nv happen for mi de?
i just wanna have a stable job,
but why must thing like this happen..
i just wanna be happie..but why...
sighx..kena dump already very sadx..
then why job also like that..
if only i nv choose to leave SH tt time..
sighx..then tear abit lorx..sighx..
but anyway..he reali nice guy la..
dun wanna him leave..
and see him talk i can laugh..
lolx..veri cute la he like xiao haizi..
which..reminds mi of him also..
sighx..sianx..nvm..hmmx...
please let miracle happen for mi~
please~please~please~~~

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Tuesday, 3 June 2008,13:14:00

the korean song because im a gal..
english translate...

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away
You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(REFRAIN):

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(CHORUS):

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl
Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry
Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(REFRAIN)
(CHORUS)

I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me
Into the night I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go
You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away
Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall
To never get torn again-

hmmx.. i saw one mtv.. got one part is say
“please dun break the hearts of the gals,
who'll do anything for love...
i didn't knw that living this life
while being loved would be so hard"
for chinese de is "谢谢你曾经爱过我,
给我最美的经过,但生命最爱被剥夺,
未来的路该怎么走"
love tis part sia... haha.. anyway
chinese one so diff.. heex...
chinese one also not bad.. quite nice...

回家的路总是很远
话少得很可怜
一个人的晚餐
都是孤单的滋味
看见身边重复上演
属于我们的画面
选择逃避的眼
怎么还是会流泪

爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了还能用什么感觉

我舍不得睁开眼睛
害怕身边没有你
也许在梦境里
是我们最近的距离
想念你温热的手心
冷风里把我握紧
当冬天又来临
这温度该怎么延续

爱着你的每一天
你就是我的世界
那时候还以为我就爱这一遍
没有你的每一天快乐离我好遥远
心已随你走了还能用什么感觉

谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过
但生命最爱被剥夺
未来的路该怎么走

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~

Sunday, 1 June 2008,23:04:00

sometimes i enjoy busy days...

liks last sat, the whole day packed..

though might be tiring but kinda enjoy..

just that..ehh..exp la.. always will spend alot

like yesterday..hmmx..drag dajie and kelvin

pei mi go suntec..but before that..they need go

causeway to send hp for repair..well..as u knw..

causeway is my forbidden place! =X

so i told them to go ahead while i wait at home

then meet them cck mrt hao le..

i showered slightly earlier coz i scare no enuf time

hmmx..tot of put on some make up ma..hee..

well, end up..i completely done..they still waiting..

sadx..i damn bored..dunno wad to do while waiting sia

til i reali sibei sianx suddenly tot of sunshine..

everytime with dajie and kelvin i sure tot of him

so i sms asked if he wanna go dinner together...

with kelvin and dajie..lolx..then he called sia..

scare mi.. hahaha...i hesitate awhile then ans...well..

anyway he couldnt make it la coz his cousin marry

hmmx..he said next time still got chance.. lolx..

when i told moonie..she said ya lorx still got chance..

lolx..but i said..ehh ya..but wait for mi got courage

to ask him out again ma..lolx..then deardear scold mi..

y must wait for ur courage?cannot ppl ask u out mehx?

i said..even so..i sure will reject also again wad..lolx..

coz..i dun dare ma..hahaha..deardear cant stand mi.. =X

anyway,reach suntec abt like..5pm?yippee!!

bought my eesential oils~ haha..

gosh..spent quite a bomb man! sobs~

then went makan..they said go food court

but i dun wan..food court alot ppl

then need find seats wait for seats..

then need go buy food ourselves!

argh..then i said go crystal jade.. =X

end up..my treat?? pig dajie la.. sighx..

sads..no money liao sia..actually...

not suppose to spent a single cent =X

coz thurs kelvin treating mi to

crystal jade kitchen..then dajie said..

like this just now that meal no need pay le rite?

wth..60plus sia.. =X sighx..

then went carrefour find that promoter

kelvin bought 3bars choc from her too..

one for himself..one for dajie and one for mi..

lolx..i additional bought one too..then got this tibits

osyter mushroom..nice..i bought 3packets..also

bought one can omega milk powder..sobs..spent..

like..30?? omg!! then we went the wine fair..but..

we too late..no promoters liao..sianx..

but..then..haha..when about to leave..somehow..

we saw got a few la..then we went this section one..

ehh..dunno wad country also.. =X

got one angmoh lady..then show mi the sweet wine..

then ask mi try in seq..so she poured for mi..

1st one nice..3rd one sux..4th one yucks..5th dunno

BUT last one even nicer!ben lai tot buy 1st one

since not very exp..29..then who knws..

argh! shouldnt have taste last one man!

she said..the best of all..awarded too..so far

no wine has been award?hmmx..lolx..58 sia

hmmx..kelvin bought one 40plus..then..

when want go pay money..saw stopper..

one for 7.90..one set of 4 for 12.90?so i took

sobs..total 110.90?sighx..terrible mi..reali is..

a leopard never changes its spot..sighx..anyway

almost 9pm le so hurry home coz kelvin work 5am

then just reach mrt stn..moon asked if wanna go coffee

haha..end up i go her place drink..then 12am..

took cab rush home coz goin jb.. hehee... =P

reach home at 3am..4plus then slept.. haha..

today woke up at 9.30, then back to rest..

when i woke up to go toilet..i tot...mayb 10am only

WOW!! got a shock..already 12plus..hahahaha...

then i lai bed awhile while more..1plus 2 liao..hee..

so 2.30pm i hurry wake up shower etc..

then hmmx.. 1st time draw eye liner sia.. =X

not very nice tho..lolx..heehee..end up i late..

wahaha..half an hour.. =P

we went mos burger sat for one and half hour..

chit chat,drink milk tea and eat fries..

xiaochun paid.. =X lolx..

then while walking around..he asked..

xiaomei u wan buy clothes?then i kiddin say

u wan buy for mi arhx? lolx..then..

he said if u wan i buy for u lorx =X

then go shop, i see thing cute and nice..

he also asked u wan?wan i buy for u..

haha..nice kor la he..sighx but sadx..

he going back china liao..no more atm for mi

=X lolx..anyway nana reached at 7pm sia..

haha..we went swensons for dinner..

after finished eating..we sat there chit chat..

ben lai when order food, tot of eat ice cream

but somehow..was thinking go eat the fruits one

cheaper and healthier and nicer..haha..

so about 8.30pm or so we left swensons..

then saw this push cart.. somehow..

spent half hour there..haha..til the rest buay tahan

went into jp first..so left mi and xiaochun..

he paid..i buy..lolx..he keep ask still want wad..

u take lorx..haha..aiyax..but not very exp la..

no worries..heehee..but he reali very nice to mi

heehee..by the time we reached the ice cream shop..

9.45pm liao.. hahah..they closin soon..so no tables..

we sat at the benches outside the shop and eat..

reali happie to meet u guys today..finally man..

another 3mths it will be one year le..wow..

so damn fast..haha..time reali flies..sighx..

enjoyed my weekend.. =)

at least so much better than last time

whereby i always just rot on bed..

slp and slp and slp..reali can feel myself rotting..

haha..i tot i enjoyed rotting..but i realized that

i dont!!! haha..ya lorx..anyway its been kinda long

since i slp super long hrs sia..

past two weeks been going out busy meeting people

another previous two weeks was working part time

haha..ya..1st time man.. =)))

hope i can stop rotting.. =X hahaha...

shit..broke! howx!! howx to go out..omg~

~♥~ wheRe is my hAppinEss ~♥~